Yesterday, Friday, was perhaps the saddest day of my life. We visited with the nuerosurgeon and learned that the tumor is much larger and more involved than originally thought. This isn't going to be the minimally invasive surgery that we had hoped for which is through the nose, but a craniotomy. He isn't sure he can get it all. He is hopeful that it is a pituitary gland tumor, but isn't even 100% sure of that.
Stewart isn't feeling well...he sees that his body isn't as well as it always has been, so we are facing the loss of so many things. Him working for a season, the loss of our peace of mind, the loss of health for a season, the loss of a warm, carefree summer when we were supposed to celebrate our 25th wedding anniversary in just a week. We will be in the hospital on that day more than likely. Nothing compares to just having him beside me in these days of sadness.
The cry of my heart is for healing and God's presence in this dark time. I am guarding my heart against anger, but the grief doesn't stop. I have learned so much, have been loved so much, and been given so much by my blessed husband. He has served the Lord in ways that have humbled and amazed me. He is truly my hero.
Thank you for reading and praying. I am a very private person, but perhaps this is therapy.
Blessings,
Denise
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The Gage family is praying for Stewart and the entire Koontz family. We are close by, so please know that you can call upon us for anything - day or night. Much Love.
ReplyDeleteSweet Jesus I pray for healing over Stewart...I pray that you breath a breathe of peace and comfort over your sweet loved ones. Father God give them Your words to Eat upon and to dwell on in the days to come.
ReplyDeleteDenise, I am praying for your family and your specific needs. This blog is a great way for us to be able to pray according to your daily needs. I will also be lifting you up so that you do not become angry in your grief and that your family would be showered with a peace that passes all understanding. Let me know if you need anything. I can bring stuff up to the hospital if you need, or make meals...anything at all.
ReplyDeleteDenise, my sister in Christ, please know that I am praying constantly that Stewart will be healed completely. I also am going to pray specifically that you will know strength and peace beyond your expectations. Sometimes God requires that we walk through situations that take more than we think we have within us. As you will discover during the next days, just when you feel as if you have fallen over the edge, He gently catches you. In the darkest, angriest moments, feel His arms around you because they will be there. I love both of you.
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Denise...hang in there...we are praying for you...your words are so encouraging to those of us "young" in our marriages...y'all are an amazing testament of faithful partners...thank you for reminding me of that...let us know how we can help...we WANT to! Much love to you and your beautiful family...hang in there...angie lindbloom:)
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